2006-05-09T22:00:00.000-07:00

i don't know what i'll see over the next few months. who i'll encounter and the amazing trivialities i'll survive dealing in the two most explosive cliques: girls and booze.
faced with both hope and pressure of a new job in a completely new environment, i find myself baffled. baffled as to how i got here, and as to where HERE will lead me to.
My god i want to do this job well. I want this job to be THE job. The one you look back on and remember as the beginning of something. i've never really had that...a beginning. i seem to remember a lot of endings or near endings that served the same purpose. but i seem to be short on beginnings, besides the obvious ones.

i'm learning the job the way an infant learns. watch. comprehend. repeat. i have never been told exactly what my job is, how it works, what the goals are, what my function is. i simply float around. following a boss that has taught me through trial and error not to ask questions, and not ask for information that may take time. i have learned to not expect more than a 10 word email, nor any other form of information that may take more than 15 seconds to dispense. if i needed more, i would have to listen to her talk and try to gleen it from random comments that contain the names, dates, and other pieces of information i may need.
I have never met a person with less time for vital info sharing than my boss. who am i going to see. what is his name. what is the phone number. can you email me it. answers to all those questions are NO. No. NO. if she has a moments she may rattle it of a mile a minute and i will have to pray to right it down,

the.way.i.see.it